“Thanks for helping me think through this”, “I feel so much better now”, “What a great suggestion. That makes so much sense”…people have been telling me things like this my whole life. However, it wasn’t until I got Bell’s Palsy in 2013 that I really began to think about what the hell my purpose was and whether I’m actually happy or just going through the motions.
Waking up with one side of your face paralyzed really does change things!
I decided to leave my comfortable job at PBS and pursue the brand development consulting I was doing on the side, full-time. I always wanted to be an entrepreneur and now I had motivation like never before. Everyone told me I was crazy to quit my job. But I did. So what happened next? I soared to success in a year? No. Not even close.
Shit hit the fan.
When I left my job, I had no back up plan, $10,000 in my bank account and didn’t really know how to run a business. I lost absolutely everything.
I ended up moving back in with my family, picked up smoking again, and worked hard to figure out my purpose. I was desperate. So, I began to read voraciously. Something I had always enjoyed doing. Reading has always been my first love, so in this time of desperation, I returned to it.
As Dan Lok says, “motivation is great, but desperation is better”. It really makes you dig deep and push yourself to limits you never knew were possible, but reaching these limits is the only way to your success. For me it couldn’t be more true.
I got more narrow, focused on delivering exceptional quality, and a stellar customer experience in my branding business. This time when I dived in, I knew how to navigate the waters! My marketing company went from making $5,000 its first year to making over $18,000 in the first 6 months of it’s second year. While that may not be much to some, it was a huge victory and point of realization for me. I went on to work in this business for 6 years, and it was “great”. But, then it all changed.
I had struggled wth depression before and after an extremely mentally abusive relationship, I was in pieces. Ready to take my life just to stop the pain. Luckily, I allowed a friend in during my darkness and she introduced me to meditation, the law of attraction, and many mindfulness practices. Within a week of practicing, my depression seemed to vanish! My apartment, that once felt like a prison, began to feel like a palace. I was so shocked that I threw myself into studying everything I could about mindfulness, emotions, spiritual alignment, mindset development and more.
I then began to incorporate these teachings into my marketing consulting practice and the results for my clients skyrocketed. However, I realized that what I loved most about what I was doing was not the marketing side, but helping people extinguish the fire of chaos in their minds, raise their confidence, and witness their lives and businesses change as a result of their internal transformation.
Then it hit me. This was my real calling. My true gift.
So, with fear in my mind, joy in my heart, and eyes wide open I ran off the cliff into my destiny. Closed my marketing company and began focusing full-time on mindfulness coaching and bringing transformational change to people who felt “stuck” in life. Mindfulness helped me save my life. I wouldn’t be here without it. So, I wanted to help others save their lives as well.
So, I’m still reading, still learning, and still pushing myself to the limit. Growth never stops once you get to a different level, you just set new goals. There is always more to learn and always someone inspirational to learn from. That’s how I approach life and always will.
By the way, I made a full recovery from Bell’s Palsy, which took exactly 12 months. This was one of the most important years of my life.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson
Your friend in transformation,